OK, now for the where, why I have been. I have been at home for the last 8+ days with my computer turned off. This eased my daily pain a bit, not much because I purposely went cold turkey on drug use to cleanse out my toxins. Sorry this was unannounced but very much needed. I spent about 6+ days in bed sweating and sleeping out the toxins through withdrawals. Only leaving for 5-10 minutes at a time to use bathroom or grab anything i could eat. I would then return asap to me bed. I lost about 15 pounds so I guess this is a "?healthy?" way to lose weight? I need to detox myself because I had basically a tolerance to most drugs on the SR menu and that is a huge problem. Some of you may have heard that I developed a Dissociative Tolerance...I have no idea how to fix this tolerance. Dissociatives no longer work with me, at least for now. I need to do some deep Dissociative Tolerance research. I had almost 4 grams of Ketamine....no khole achieved...same with MXE. So this was the initial reason I decided to detox, but then I thought about the dosage levels I was taking on other drugs I enjoy and realized it was off the charts as well. This was my thinking process and i turned the computer off and took care of myself. Sorry if this inconvenienced anyone, i know it has a few(you know who you are and I you). My health IRL is more valuable to me than the inconvenienced few, sad but true. I plan making right to these few, when I get the chance, most likely next week. In the future vendors and sending me samples to validate legitimacy, has been changed to you offer me samples and I offer you a list of trust worthy senior members to test...I think this is a much better idea than me bearing the sole source for the legitimacy of a vendor or his sample sent to me. Though this has not caused my situation it is very stressful when a scammer sends me a sample and then rips off everyone after I vouched for their product. It not fair to me or to the community. Anyway I turned Tor on last night and ventured into the Silc Channel and noticed quite a few new chat members and many friends. So though I still get fevers sometimes I'll try to wade through the forums as much as possible. Maybe not as much as before but just because i'm not logged in doesnt mean i don't see what's going on around here. I'm actually looking for a few moderators to help, if you think you are mod material contact me via PM on the SRM: http://ianxz6zefk72ulzz.onion/index.php/silkroad/user/1499 Questions are welcomed in this thread, plx do not fill my PM box. What drama comes next? nomad bloodbath